Whats next!

I have been thinking a lot lately on whats next for me and my family. I have pondered on what has happened the last few months, how my happiness and spirit has changed. How my gratitude and love has grown. It amazes me on how my life has changed and my attitude at that. How much i have grown and matured through the last several months. Its like i just blinked my eyes and it still feels like its not real at times. In the last several years when i would think about the step of leaving my husband and being a single mom, i never pictured it being like this. I always doubted myself and thought i would never make it, thought love would never find me,a single mom two children who would want that, i thought. I never thought i could make it leaving in my own apartment after leaving him or being able to succeed at all. I felt so down to earth and so for sure on knowing that i couldn't do it and so i should just keeping trying and have more patience things will get better. The wonderful thing about all of this is that i have proven myself wrong in so many ways. I am a single mom of two children, i live in my own apartment, and i have found love again. I have made it for myself and for my children. I have gotten further than i ever thought i would. I am going 5 months without the man i was with for 5 years and i am still trucking along. I am so very proud of myself, for making the best decision i could have ever made for myself. I am the happiest person there could ever me on this earth. I don't have jewels, or riches,or money either. I have family and friends, my children and the man i have fallen so deeply and madly in love with. So whats next for me is a new positive attitude. A new change, and new hope and a new way of life.
Growing up was difficult and i was depressed a lot and then getting married, at that point i thought it was the best decision for me and that it was the right path for me to take, i believe this man was the one. Then after being married for over a year i had doubt and so much had change but i kept trying, the depression was holding on too me as well, and with everything i was going through in the marriage made it so hard. I was not on medicine, i didn't actually take any medicine for depression until over a year ago, now i am off of it. I changed my mind, my way of thinking, the positive attitude, also not letting things getting to me as much. I have learned a lot and i am excited for once in my life to know i am truly happy and i can now look forward to a future of knowledge, hope, love, and happiness.

Fall 2010

Its been a pretty good time of the year so far. Enjoying having lots of time with the kids. Went to black Island farms for Abby's field trip that was a really fun family activity. Then took the kids to trick or treat at lee's that was fun. Went to a trunk or treat with the kids and to all there grandparents house. Had some good visits. I had to get new glasses, there super cute but more money then what i wanted to spend. Now we are preparing for thanksgiving. I am hoping i can go with Jac to Wyoming to go visit with his dad, for thanksgiving. Abby and Lucas will stay here with there dad for thanksgiving. Enjoy some time with there great grandpa. I found out that he has cancer and probably does not have much time to live, he is ready to go home to his wife.

I am the happiest girl in the world. I am so in love with him, never have ever felt love like this before.

~Lucas~

~Abigail~

ABBY AND MOMMY!

Happiness

My life is full of happiness. I have to thank my children, myself and Jacob. I have changed my life so much and i couldn't be more grateful for what i have done for myself. I have not done anything truely for myself in a long time and now that i have i am really happy. Life is so great. I want to live life and am going to live it like there is no tomorrow. Life is too short to be miserable. I love my life..... I have the most amazing people in my life. Jac is an incredible and most amazing man ever. I am extremely lucky to have an amazing man and friend in my life.